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Bape menjak ni hati agak ribut. Td tngok cite cina, L for Love, L for Lies. Dah jd habit, bila ngok pape cite especially yg menyentuh prasaan; love story, old good times, biasanya tend to motivate dri sendiri to be better person in relationship with people; any kind - oldies, loved one, stranger...

But.... 'terpandang belakang'...I am fully aware that those who keeps me breathing are not my equal, we shouldn't mix around together. Tp times ngan diorang are the most calming one, I guess. Sometimes, I do missed them, bila bumped in ngan pape yg reminds bout them. And I really miss them right now eventhough I know some of them are bad peoples that really good at taking sponge on me trade off their virtues on me. And I am aware that I am owned now. That's what keeping me not to be astray. That's up to today..Ptg ni dok layan cite antu lak. Hounted School ngan death curse...Yikes!

Smlm... jejalan sampai puas, even demam xla baik sgt. G kdai moto, moto tinggal balance around rm300 more je to be settled. Phew, nsib bek bunga xnek byk. Tah bape bulan da aku xbyar. Then g urut kaki. Ho....lega...kasi repair sama badan. Then jejalan kat jj....Jalan sampai xlarat n jalan. Ksut yg bli ritu, sakit kaki jalan. Nsib bek la harganya rm20 lbey aje. Lau dok diam ok je. Jarang beli spatu, tu yg slah pilih aje...trus time tu gak g bli spatu baru. Then beli komik gempakstars aje tah bape biji. G secret secipe!! 

Lame gile xrasa secret recipe...Beli panties belang lg (ahaks), stationary sket, then blik layan tb sambil study tak dilupe...Tngok Momok the movie. Takut, tp ada gak la part klakar...Bile nk blik pt raja ni...nk wat facial, nk shopping pape yg patut, amek baju kat tai chong, nk bsuh lg..Ah....Time is running out n I hate to rush!

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Raya 2010

Finally at home. Smlm sampai. Demam lak. But it's ok.. Family? As usual, keeps making me feels lousy, useless. I wish I could be a better man. My lil bro bought Sony vaio lappy n he's comparing his and mine one. Why is it me, the one that always have more money incapable of supporting myself to have good stuff? I realize that my lappy is bought upon needs beating down the time, but this is what i managed to afford n i love my lappy; it's bought in advance by my fiancee considering my needs. Mama ckp, da keje, ada gaji, watpe susahkan dri blaja, dia xsuh blaja, yg gatal blaja watpe? Niece dia, baru keje, da bli kete. tp aku, da lame keje, kete pon xde. My lil bro, looking down on me, sbb study kat upm. Katanye upm sijil xlaku. Ha...all these time, xpnah pon aku mintak tlg diowg bla susah, n they never really pushed me to one even bla tau aku susah. I shouldn't really care bout all those words. It's just that they came from my bloodline who never act like one.

Pg raya? Still stranded kat Pt Raja. It's ok. Slama ni pon, raya xpnah ada pape makna. Kenny called, few times, tp aku reject. xnk dia bising aku xbalik raya, xsiap baju raya, xbli kuih raya, xuruskan diri pg raya. Dia sentiasa pastikan on times like this, everything's ready for me even tak sambut raya. Does everyone around me must be paid in order to care on me like he does?

Manusia mmg satu2nya species yg Allah cipta dan bersifat kejam. Even animals care to love on stranger. Tp manusia, lom tentu lg kta sentiasa baik, bsama ngan dia, they will stand by when we're  in pinch.

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Mlm raya

Mlm ni malam raya

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Mlm ni abg blanja kain pasang dua...kaler biru same (saje nk match ngan baju raya dia) n satu lg campur2...pas bli trus antar tai chong

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Mcm thn lepas, malam raya dia keje gak. So pas blik shopping tu just sms and kol je..Dia hantar sms raya. Sign; "abang ayang" First time dia bahasakan diri camtu

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Kat sini ada byk org men bunga api. Mesti best lau dapat tengok bunga api ngan dia. Skang ni sorang je kat uma sewa. Fine to me. Everyday is the same, nothing special, unless happy things happen la

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Kad raya utk dia xbeli lg. Before balik upm t je la blikan dia

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Thn lepas bg masa minta maaf malam raya. Tp mlm ni xsempat nk tangkap feel mintak maaf..Sok2 aje la...

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Rmai sent sms raya. Tp yg pling xsangka, abie n nizam sent sms raya. Abie - thought he wouldn't care to bother bout me. Since da tau aku tunang. Nizam - hati masih panas ngan dia, even sbnarnye rindu heppi times ngan dia.

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Penjamin

At last dapat gak penjamin. Suddenly the skies are so clear blue. Those yg aku xexpect utk jd penjamin, never think to ask for one, sanggup jd. I am so thankful. Sorang je lg..,.n nk settlekan dokumen yg len....

Rini dia nk amek mc. Yay..nk jejalan...Rini 1st day pose after period. xplan buka lg rini...Dok melepak kat postgrad...ujan, xley nk gerak ke memane...

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Shopping Raya bsama Si Dia....

Da 2 ari kua shopping raya ngan dia...Smlm bli jeans and baju melayu dia...Kaler biru...Hurm...xsame la kaler baju raye...nsib bek ada bju kaler biru yg match ngan dia. Bju melayu yg kaler same ngan hantaran ritu xde...so amek je la kaler favret aku...kale favret asal...skang da btambah, suka pink, ijau...

Rini bukak pose kat uma parents dia...blik g bp mall lak. hajat nk beli kasut, perfume, cincin n wallet...kasut dpt beli...perfume xsempat tngok...cincin lak, emas naek harga...xdpt la pau dia....wallet lak, yg kenan tu harga dlm $50....xbeli la gamaknye...tah la...prefer beli yg durable n murah coz biasa tukar barang2 camni....so cam xberbaloi je beli mahal, pastu t bila xok, beli lain...

Nk tngok kat expo pt raja, tp dia xlarat lak. mlas lak nk paksa....ngalah je la...sok n kena settlekan biasiswa...xsuka la prosedur2ni...leceh....

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Dalam Kenangan : Allahyarham Shahizul Eza Bin Mohd Kiblee (1979-2010)

Mcm xcaye je En. Jaja da xde. Dia muda lg. Tua aku 5 tahun je. Sian wife dia. Da la nga pregnant ank 1st, time pose, 1st time nk braye bsama lak tu. xdpt bayangkan time dia nk bsalin t sesorang tanpe suami. If I were at her place, aku xrasa aku mampu nk lalu suma tu sesorang. Msti wat prangai, dok sesorang, xnk campur sesape, xnk wat pape, rasa nk mati same gak. Dia mmg sorang yg sentiasa tsengih, wat lawak bodoh, usik orang, mmg trasa la lau dia xde. Tp..lau aku xde, msti xde sesape rase pape, kn? Why am I never being important to anybody? Hurm....

ngan En Jaja msa LI degree

Cuti sem da start. Tp same je. Just bg sket masa utk siapkan keje yg blambak. Baru pas 2 test - data mining n software architecure. Mmg tseksa idop, beb. Tp biasa la, alam study...Nek cuti ada test lg. Hope aku akan lbey perform nek cuti n gunakan sebaek2 nye cuti yg ada ni utk prepare

Urm...skang kat BP. Settlekan dulu penjamin n sgala yg patut, then bru ley blik Mlk...Da lama xmerempit, mesti best. Baru la rasa cam blik kg bla nek moto. ~ku jejak jalan yg berliku menuju impian...

ahak! Da lame xjumpa budak. Tan mmg da ilang trus. Sdey...Dia la pengganti yot. Skang da xde kawan lg...

Sblm raya ni nk kna bukak pose uma parents dia dulu. Aku ni da la xbape kenan makan kat uma orang...Hope xkena paksa makan..

Then shopping raya ngan dia...Alamak, jgn la aku lupe amek baju raya kat tai chong t...tah pe rupe la baju tu nanti. Hopefully cantik, ley pakai time beraya ngan family dia t...

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